Monday, July 13, 2020

2020-07-07 - Distracted Communications - L and Seamus





L sits stare out a window. They're dressed in a  simple white scrubs and  has white slip on  fabric houseshoes. They look out the window watching  the birds fly. L has a simple smile. They're  in a bit of a better since a month  ago. L waits as they are call and steps up to thw phone dialing they hope was still their bestfriend or they'd settle on friend. They wait as phone rings

Seamus was sitting on the ferry looking out at the water, half hoping to see a whale.  He’s in runners, jeans and a plain blue tshirt.  His eyes search the water, then the sky.  When his phone rings, he looks at it with a raised brow.  Unknown caller.  But he answers anyway.  “Hello.”

A pleasant female tone chimes"You are receiving a call from." L voice calmy announces "L horatio". The female tone continues "a resident at Serenity Meadows. Please press 5 to accept this paid call"

Seamus arches his brows even higher on his head.  “Ummm.”  he pulls the phone away from his ear and presses 5.  Then he says, tentatively.  “L?”

The phone plays a chill instrumental version of one of India's songs before connecting . L hears Seamus's voice. It's abit surreal. "Ello Shay..is that you." Their tone is a bit cautious but hopeful. "Oui this is L" they pause to let him respond  if he wants

Seamus looks out at the horizon.  “Yea …  it’s me.”  he pauses, sounding a bit confused.  “Where are you?  What’s Serenity Meadows?  What’s up?”

L exhales a bit nervously  and clears their throat. "It's a therapeutic residential  community  for people that need some assistance with coping with trauma. It's in Winnipeg." L Looks at a bird sitting on the window  sill."I'm sorry I didn't call you sooner. It was an emergency transfer and my phone was confiscated. Zis is my first day I can speak  to someone zat is not my uncle. " They sound sincerely apologetic. "How've you been?"

Seamus is quiet for a long time.  A therapeutic residential community?  A mental hospital?  “Trauma?  What happened?”  he blinks.  This was news.

L blinks  abit "you remember with Angelique dying and what Jaque did to me.." they gulp abit "i was referred here. Its a therapy home so i can get the help i need in coping with zat trauma." They exhale softly. "They're really experience in both those mental trauma" L sounds abit hopeful

Seamus licks his lips.  “Yea …  I …  I remember.  So now … it’s …  I mean you see it the way I saw it?  I .. didn’t want to say anything cause … it seemed like you thought this Jaques guy …  that you guys were friends raising the baby all happy and shit.”  he blows out a breath.  “Well …  I’m glad you’re getting help for it all.  The baby dying and … you know … the rest of it.”  he pauses and tries to think how long its even been since the last time he talked to L.  “How … how long have you been gone?”

L nods as he talks then remembers he couldn't see them and says "i know.  You all especially  you've been so kind  to me..i didn't realize  it either about Jaquee.. he had me in a sorta of a supor.. brainwash being ze good  papa.."L exhales "he had me under a trance thinking  he was the good guy.. zen when i first heard from papa and was going  to come back to ze only real home i had on Alexandra..he did it again before i came back. "L voice sounds painful  but determined "zey are saying  here i blocked it out..traumatic amnesia..but zey helped me unlock here that and dr. Henry..helped..me." they exhale in stitched breath "i needed to tell you first this..part since you've been my closest friend i dare say best friend.  L holds their breath abit then exhales waiting for him to respond. "Been gone since the first part of June  " they add "sorry time is  a novelty  here. It's July right. Happy belated Canada day."

Seamus blows out a breath.  He knew L wasn’t fragile … or rather hadn’t been fragile back when they were in school together.  Then she’d vanished for three years, as he had.  And in those years he’d changed.  She’d changed.  He’d changed.  Everything had changed.  He still didn’t get the whole he/she thing/  No one had explained it to him.  But he liked L whether in male or female mode.  Since she’d come back, they’d only spoken a few times, trying to be like nothing ever happened.  Now she was in the hospital, finally getting help for issues that had happened after she left.  After the Fog.  He runs a hand through his red hair.  “No ….  Yea … I’m glad you let me know what’s going on with you.”  he gives a soft low whistle.  “June…”  he breathes.  “Oh … right …  Happy Canada Day to you, too.”  he tightens his grip on his hair.  “Um … I still don’t get it.  A lot of shit I just don’t …  But anyway, L.  I guess what matters is that you get the help you need, you know.”

L breathes a sigh of relief. "Its a lot to take in and i know you wont get it..because  even a brilliant man such as yourself can't fathom my sorted and confusing persona. I've never needed ya to completely get me. I'm just happy you try anyways because  i know you care. you didn't even walk away from me even when i was being the ice queen i was. You been there to help thaw me out..and most importantly you've been a perfect example  of what a friend is.. and I will forever appreciate that" L chuckles softly. "Enough  about me. You know how I've been . How have you been?" They say eagerly

Seamus leans back against the walls of the ferry, out of the wind.  “Me?”  he takes a moment and tries to figure out what L knew.  “Um .. not much.  I’m working now.  And .. um ..  I got a girlfriend.  You know .. a girl that is more than just a fuck?  So that’s new .. and kinda awesome, actually.  Commitment .. and shit.”  he clears his throat awkwardly.  He considers telling her about Owen and Slaine, then decides against it.  If she’s dealing with the trauma o her own kid, that might be too much.  The whole thing was awkward.


L smiles brightly  at the news but plays it off cool part of them is squeeing inside but they say "wel look at you. Im glad that worked out..its not daisy is it or did some other lady  come in and did her magic .." they chuckle softly t" well im glad for you mon ami. That's the best news I've heard all week! " they say supportingly "with that news anything is possible "they say in  a friendly ebbing tone. Their dark manicure eyebrow raised in amusement. L's genuinely happy tone chimed through  the ebbing as they were happy for their friend.

Seamus laughs when Daisy is mentioned.  “Um... no … definitely not Daisy.”  he sighs deeply.  “Daisy … I … well … turns out I was leading her on, I guess.  Or she didn’t get it.  I mean I told her a million times it was about the sex … and she said she was OK … you know what .. never mind.  Yes, a magical woman flew into my life, opened my eyes and I gave her my heart.  You lose any teeth yet at my sickeningly sweet bullshit?”  he snorts.  “Just proof miracles happen.”

L chuckles  along with him abit then senses the change in his tone as he goes on abou daisy  "well ice man you can thae an sice queen but no one can get through  to people that wont see reason "but then when his tone changes again. L contains their girly giddiness.  They were some where today in the middle of the spectrum and gladly enough for Seamus sake he gets a return friendly jab "wait wait ow.. ow.. nurse.. I need some novocain. " A lady in blue scrubs  up towards them.  " im joking im just talking to my bro..okay zank you" L waves her off continue"yeah i think i need a root canal with that story but.. im glad if you're  happy even if ill need dental  work done cuz of it " they laugh "well when i get out of here. I can't wait to meet the woman that made you an honest man. Gives me inspiration if you  can be a committed  i can get better  and get uncommitted  from here sooner" they laugh jokingly 

Seamus laughs until it souls like L might be telling a nurse they don’t need medication.  Right.  Psychiatric facility.  He gets a quick flash of One Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest and pushes it out of his head.  “Yea … if I can fall in love and stick to one girl, you getting out of there is easy as fuck.”  he pauses.  “Um … want me to … you know .. give any messages to anyone?  Does Fiona know what happened?”

L sense his tone change "they dont even give anything  harder the tylenol here.. its a natural community anyone needing more help then group  therapy and one on one talks goes.. i dont know really.. i dont wanna find out.. they're  mainly here for medical emergency or something . " they say softly "she knows i was joking..patch adams approach and all. We have comedy movie night every  night" L adds " hell if you can fall in love anything  is possible.,Especially with good friends and food." L stomach gumble "speaking of food what i wouldn't do for some chili right now . im dreaming of it seriously" he chuckles as Seamus asked about passing along  messages "Fi sort knew about the whole zing in Ibiza  but haven't talked  to her since i talked to her in june. I'll call her when i can get another call next week
 but just let her know i getting help and give her a hug from 
me and tell Vincent that his music  is a therapeutic tool here " they chuckle " zey play it here  alot so i reminds me of him and all you guys ,and helps me even faster to get back. Tell him and Owen i said Hi. "They pause "tell owen to take good care of zat mama ,  ze boy and ze baby"

Seamus nods.  “Yea …  I can do all of that, L.  No problem.”  he senses he call is wrapping up.  “Listen.  You take care and .. you now … figger it all out.”  he encourages.

L hears a tone on the overhead announcement system in gentle voice "the meal will be served in the theater . today's  movie will be mrs doubtfire" L chuckles "thanks shay. I will and you be sweet to that magical woman of yours. I need to go and get a good seat" 
  










No comments:

Post a Comment