Anna was in the greenhouse sifting through a bin of seeds in various labelled baggies and repurposed envelopes. She had a notebook and pencil beside her on a crate and kept making notations and muttering "2018.…..well those won't germinate again......we're going to need more jalapenos...." She was wearing a bandana, a comfy pair of worn out thai fishing pants and an old button up plaid shirt over a tank top. Her feet were in sandals as the days were warming.
Phoenix Fire Moon came out of the rooftop apartment he shared with Anna Wright. He was dressed in grey thai fishing pants and nothing else. The days were getting warmer now and he was happy to shed even shoes. These days he always wore something, unless he was in the shower. Concessions had to be made in life and love and for Anna he would have dressed like a monk if it made her more comfortable. He sees her in the greenhouse and enters with two cups of nice hot tea … from their garden, of course. “Morning…” he offers both one of the cups of tea and a quick kiss, if allowed. Catching the last of her mutterings on his way in, he suggests. “We could ask Nicodemus. He’s got every kind of pepper imaginable.”
Anna accepts the kiss and kisses back briefly. She’s focussed today. She takes the cup "Thank you. And yes I will. I'll even make him salsa if we have nothing he wants as a trade. Mind you mine will probably seem like ketchup compared to his tastes." She looks around "I hope Dad has lots of chickens....do you think we should put a little hutch up here too?" She sips from her cup and sighs. It was a good herbal blend this one. She needed the calm.
Phoenix happily accepts the kiss, then sips from his own. “He likes our tomatoes, so he can make his salsa all ten ways.” he chuckles and he looks out of the greenhouse windows towards the North Woods, here the Farm is. “Your Dad knows about your not so secret egg addiction.” he teases. “And I’m sure the chickens survived another winter.” then he moves to look at the rest of their rooftop garden. “I’m not sure we should. This is Alexandra. A run for eggs shouldn’t take more than an hour, since socializing has changed so much.” The way the town has been locked down is, in many ways quite alarming for a man who loves moving about outside and he is grateful for the rooftop apartment.
Anna conceded "I know you're right. Gives folks somewhere to go. I tried that Zoom with Steph earlier this morning. I hope we didn't wake you. It's kinda like Skype...a little less laggy. Anyhow Steph's got a whole regime going for their house with a decontamination process at the door pretty much. I think she's freaked about Mike's work being so exposed still. I hope she doesn't make him sleep in a tent in the garage...." Anna pulls a brand new looking package out of the bin of seeds "I got these before the ferries stopped again....before we knew all this. Really as an experiment." She opens the package and pulls out one smaller bag to show Phoenix "Peanuts....can we do this? I know we've shifted to hemp seed butter and sunflower butter but think about it...the decadence!"
Phoenix sips his tea as Anna talks and almost snorts it out laughing about Steph. “Poor Mike. Because I know they don’t HAVE a garage. But there's space under the porch when it rains. Gods help him if he gets a common cold.” he looks at the small bag. “I hope we can. You know how I love my decadence.” he did not often refer to his odd lifestyle anymore. Now he was as monogamous as the next regular man. “I’ve missed it.”
Anna laughed at the comments about Mike and then slid the bag back into the larger package. She looked sideways at Phoenix for a moment, like she was going to say something else but didn't. Instead there was an intentional shift back to another topic "Tomatoes....I started a few flats but I know Nicodemus wants the Rutger's too......gotta be a few more of those. I should have organized all this better..." She's muttering at the end as she digs.
Phoenix sees the glance and notes the shift of topic. He sets his tea down and reaches for her, pulling her to him, if allowed. “I meant that I’ve missed peanut butter.” he tells her, and if he can he’ll put his arms around her. “This life is perfect for me.” he almost scoffs. “You didn’t change me. I didn’t change for you. I’ve just evolved, Anna. I still love you .. but now I love only you.” he assures her, knowing she worries about that sometimes. That he is monogamous for her and not because it is how he is. In the past, that may have been the case but even a few years before Alexandra was cut off, he felt a shift in his being towards wanting to be ‘the only’ and wanting the one he was with to be his only.
Anna releases her handful of seed packages to the floor of the greenhouse and lets Phoenix pull her in. She laughs and gets a little teary eyed at the same time. He knows her too well. "I love you too. I just never want to hold you back from anything. Heck I could wear a bunch of wigs and do different voices if it helps that..." She jokes and she wraps her arms around him as well. "But I'll also make you some kick ass peanut butter."
Phoenix holds her close. “No wigs. Just you. That adorable sound you make when you’re excited and embarrassed about it. How a little sound for you tells me you want my touch. Sweet, beautiful and incredibly sexy, Anna.” he grins at her.
Anna blushes deeply and grins back "That's good because I really don't have any wigs. It would end up being straw bales and paste or felted cat fur......not hot at all....." She gets distracted from the seeds entirely now and just kisses him a little intensely.
Phoenix chuckles and almost answers, but her kiss takes his breath away for a moment. “Maybe for Halloween.” he murmurs, teasing. He loves to tease her and will occasionally kick himself for the years when he wasn’t ready to be hers entire. But now she is his and he moves closer to her, feeling her body against his.
Anna gives a slight chuckle back and then keeps kissing Phoenix, feeling the warmth of his skin against her arms, getting lost in him. Without breaking the kiss she starts to try to pull them both to a lying down position on the tarp she had laid out to sort seeds on. the packages are strewn around it but she doesn't seem to notice or care.
Phoenix is happily led to the floor of their greenhouse. He doesn’t stop kissing her, but he pays her on her back and puts himself on the side of her. Allowing his hands to wander, he strokes her chest, brushing her breast and then placing his hand in hers. He loves to be led by her, wanting her to place his hand where she wants it which is often followed up by his mouth and tongue.
Anna knows this dance and sighs happily. She shifts a bit using her free hand to adjust her position so her body is fully accessible to Phoenix. Head turned to the side she kisses him hungrily, her lips pulling at his and then her mouth opening and tongue exploring. She caresses his hand that's in hers and with her other hand still free she slides up her tank top, revealing bare breasts and no bra and then very efficiently undoes the tie ups on both of their thai fishing pants which of course means the pants just fall down or slide off then since it's only the tied strings and wrap around that secure them. She thinks for a moment and then slides his hand back to her breasts.
Phoenix adores her sigh and, as she reveals her body to him, takes a moment to look at it. His hand is placed on her breasts and he softly flicks at her nipple, his eyes more on her face watching her reaction to him. Then he lowers his head to the breast that he is not playing with and first flicks that nipple with his tongue and then softly sucks at.
Anna smiles at him a bit shyly as he looks at her body and then her head rolls back and she writhes and shudders a bit, her breath becoming faster and audible. She caresses the side of his head and his hair and then lets her fingers play at the back of his neck. He knew her buttons, all of them now.
Phoenix continues the dual play, knowing how Anna adored it. He feels her hand at the back of his neck and looks up her body. “You’re so beautiful.” he breathes softly. None of that had changed for him in the decades that he’d known her. Of course her body had changed but he loved every stage he’d seen. He moves his hand off of her breast and rests it on her belly, as he turns his kissing, licking and sucking to both breasts, going from one to the other.
Anna smiles a little more at his words. She knew he meant it and she loved him for it, despite all her self consciousness. Their connection was deeper than the first time, spiritual in a more grounded way than she'd ever felt. He was the earth, the air and the sky for her and right now he was really starting to move that earth. Her little gasps came as he moved from side to side. It was mostly about the breath in her responses with the very occasional little noise of pleasure.
Phoenix closes his eyes a moment as the sounds of Anna’s pleasure wash over him. Pausing from the suckling of her nipple, he begins to flick a bit faster at her nipple. He can smell her pleasure and he basked in it. His favorite smell in the world; a turned-on Anna. Perhaps even more because so few could even imagine her in a state of pleasure, desire or need.
Anna wriggles and writhes some more, a little squeak of a grunt coming out with one exhale. Phoenix was driving her nuts and he knew it. and she knew he knew it. She started scooping the side of him with her outside leg, wrapping it around him if she can catch his side body and move it, thrusting gently up at him as she does so.
Phoenix suppresses his grin. He knew what he was doing to her. When she wraps her leg around him, he caresses it and begins to slide backward a bit, leaving one hand at her breasts but moving the other between her legs. He attempts to spread them, followed by beautifully natural lips to take a taste of his love.
Anna arches her back, gripping his shoulder as he transitions. She's literally twitching in anticipation, her breath beginning to rasp. She opens her legs to him eagerly, offering him every part her being....body, mind and soul.
Phoenix takes a long and loving taste, then glances up her body. She meant the world to him when they first fell in love. No she is more, somehow. “Do you remember the first time we kissed?” he asks before taking another long, slow lick of her. “The first time you let me touch you.” The next lick is a bit faster. “The first time I made you cum?” he lingers for several more licks. “The first time we made love?” he licks her again, and moves his tongue inside of her, letting his lips rush against her clit.
Anna is in a bit of a trance like state, panting now with tiny moans escaping her now and then. She smiles and answers his questions though as her pleasure heightens. "Yes." she breathes out "Mmmhmm...she struggles to express on an inhale. She's streaming now, soaking him surely and she can barely answer the next one and sort of half nods with a bigger gasp. Her head rolls back again and she can't answer the last. It was yesterday and years ago at the tame time because time has no definition right now. It's just she and Phoenix in a cocoon of absolute harmony and pleasure. She lets out an audible but still soft moan.
Phoenix had not expected an answer. Not with how he knew he was pleasing her. There was nothing but pleasing her for him. Making her cum … again. Then making love to her, perhaps even making her cum again, but still giving her pleasure. He moves his other hand up to caress her face as he pulls his head back slightly, concentrating on licking her clit and listening to the resultant sounds.
Anna kissed at the hand that moved to her face and then she took it in hers and took Phoenix's index finger into her mouth and sucked on the tip of it, grunting into it as well as she started to hit the edge of her climax. She gripped his arm, thrusting up, body shuddering, panting fully now. She had broken into a light sweat, a good sweat though, her thighs and hips wet, inner thigh sweat mingled with other juices as she crashed over the highest wave, coming down on Phoenix maybe a little harder than if she was fully in control. she lightly bit the finger in her mouth, shuddering slowly ebbing as she finished.
Phoenix watched Anna’s climax, almost painfully hard himself. But her love nip pulls him back a little bit and he is glad of it. It brought him from the edge of a fast orgasm of his own and he did not want to cum immediately. He stops his licking and kisses his way up her body to her face, here he kisses her passionately. Once he breaks the kiss, he looks down at her. “Beautiful, primal Anna.” he breathes, even as he blindly removes his pants and slides himself into her with a hiss of his own pleasure. He keeps the hand at her face where it is and uses the hand that guided him into her to wrap one of her legs around him as he plunges as deeply into her as he can. He feels blessed to be with her, to be her man. She reacts to him like no other woman has and he loves her all the more for it.
Anna is still riding her last wave out when she suddenly feels him inside her and grips him with her fingers in the back of his shoulders, her legs tightening around him and a little at this point involuntary squeeze with a shudder. Catching her breath, she kisses him sweetly and without breaking them apart tries to flip them. She whispers "I want to return the favour." He knows how eager he is to please, goddamn selfless but she wants to get on top and give him a ride that focuses on him, since he's been so generous and loving.
Phoenix feels her try and flip him. He gently, but firmly, lays her back and stops his motion, thrown by the desire. Bracing himself on his arms, he looks down at her. “Since when do you like being on top?” he wonders. “I mean .. if it makes you happy, but … we’ve never done it that way before.” and they’ve known each other since Anna was in her 20’s and he was in his 30’s. “And favor? Love … favors are when I let you use my razor to shave your legs, not …” he blinks, confused.
Anna has a momentary pause as something seems to cross her mind and she dismisses it with a perplexed expression. Then she genuinely says "Sorry...just a whim..." She pushes it from her mind and fully rolls back "I'm good here. I don't know why I did that....come here..." She pulls him in for another kiss. Her mind was a strange place lately with flashes of things that made no sense at weird times. It was probably just the stress of this bizarre pandemic.
Phoenix pauses. “Okay…” and is pulled into the kiss. He’s deep inside of her and, while stopping would not be easy, he’d make it happen. Withdrawing and entering her deeply again, he pauses. “Anna, I love you. Are you sure this is alright?”
Anna looks at Phoenix with pure love. In truth she wasn't sure if she was ok right now but his love making was not the problem. In fact it was helping her stay where she wanted to be. She gave him confirmation and consent "I love you too...I'm very ok.....please keep going..." His depth reconnected her and she pressed her body up to meet his, increasing it and exhaling happily.
Phoenix nodded and smiled. Her pressing up to meet him felt so incredible, he continued. He watches her, loving her face, but the hiccup was throwing them both off. But the feeling remains incredible and soon his pace quickens.
Anna sped up with him now lowering her hands to grip him by the hips, thrusting back hard and letting out little grunts. She was trying to lose herself in the moment, hoping she hadn't ruined it for him. Squeezing from the inside out a few times, she was almost pleading with Phoenix, wanting him to find the joy too, looking up at him hopefully.
Phoenix loves how they make love and he goes as deep as he can, taking her squeezing encouragement gratefully. And it does help. He speeds up and grunts happily followed by a groan as he cums deeply inside of her. Slightly out of his usual habit, he rolls off of her almost immediately, panting softly, but looks at her with an encouraging smile. He loves her but … that was not their best lovemaking.
Anna closes her eyes and smiles when she can tell he's cumming but then looks a little jolted by his sudden roll off. She knew he was fixed even though it was a once mentioned never discussed topic...he could have stayed...they could have savoured. She was clinging now and she knew it. She sees the smile and gulps, eyes shining as she rolls on her side to look at him "I messed it up...didn't I?" Her crisis of confidence is glaring through her like a beacon of self doubt.
Phoenix rolls onto his side and puts his hand on her arm. “I wouldn’t say that.” He tries to comfort her. “It was just something that threw me off.” he explains. “You have to admit, it was strange.” he strokes her arm. “It’s alright. I still love you. You still love me. It can’t be mind blowing every time we make love.” he teases.
Anna sniffs and wipes at her eyes, her insecurities overflowing and mingling with her inner fears "I know. I just don't want to let you down. I don't know what that was about. I mean a whim...but my head's been weird lately...and my dreams, like I'm escaping to some totally other life. Maybe I should make a virtual appointment with Dr. Singh. I could be kinda losing it here Phoenix..." Then her mood swings and turns on him, maybe defensively "And why did you pull out so fast? I mean it's not like you can get me preg..." As it comes out of her mouth she realizes her tone is a little callous and backtracks trying to soften "I mean it would be ok..." She rolls onto her back and slides her hands over her face "Fuck I'm sorry...I don't know what my problem is...."
Phoenix gathers her in his arms and holds her close. He knows her insecurities and deals with them. “It couldn’t hurt.” he tells her. “And I will love you even if you lose ‘it’.” he promises her, because it’s true. He almost goes on when the mood sings hits him. In a way, he blames himself, as he hadn’t done more than tell her ‘I had a vascetomy,’ which took care of the condom issue when they had finally started having sex again. He sighs and blinks, then leans on his side, supporting his head with his arm. The other hand tries to pull hands away from her face. “I know I don’t usually pull out. I love being inside of you for as long as I can. You know that.” he sighs again. “As Sky and I started drifting apart, I found myself with only female lovers.” he murmurs. “One of them as this Australian woman and … some of the things she said made me think she might intentionally try and get pregnant. Without consulting me or the woman we shared. Both women fought over it, actually. They wanted to have my baby and I…” he shakes his head as he shrugs a bit. “I only wanted to have a child with one woman .. and neither of them was that woman.”
Anna lets her hands be pulled and rolls back into his arms. She traced a finger along Phoenix's collar bone as she listened, a bit humbly after her little outburst. Curiosity got the better of her and she timidly asked “Who DID you want to have a child with?" She's asking like she assumes someone else from his past.
Phoenix takes the hand at his collarbone and brings it to his lips, then chuckles a little bit. “My one and only true love.” he tells her. “The woman I realized far too late was my soulmate. ” He pauses. “My stupid cock is an idiot … or as.” he looks at her. “You may have heard of her. Anna May Wright. Ring a bell?” he offers her a half smile.
Anna inhales sharply and seems to forget to exhale for an alarming amount of time as she just stares at him, eyes filling with tears again. Fumbling for her breath she exhales out "Me? Oh damn..." She has to laugh a bit and then asks sheepishly "Well when did you get the snip?" She laughs again "I mean we're getting old Phoenix...but if they deem me not insane....I'd consider it...." She's stopped laughing and looks completely earnest.
Phoenix laughs when she realizes that it was HER he’d wanted children with. “Yes, you.” he replies. “I never thought of children before I met you and then me and my stupid dick fucked us up by needing other women .. but I never wanted children with any other woman. He snorts a little. “It was maybe six months before the island got lost.” he tells her. “Three years ago.” he listens to her and feels the earnestness of her words. “I’ll ask Dr McKinney if she can walk me through it over Skype or that Zoom thing you mentioned.” he smiles at her. “I would love that. Sharon and Molly were the only people between me and you and Sky and Gabby.” he didn’t take on a lot of lovers, despite being polyamorous. “But Molly King was crazy. I mean certifiable. When she found out about my snip, she went absolutely batshit crazy on me. I broke up with both girls. Shortly after that I hooked up with Sky again, but there was Gabby and…” he shrugs and doesn’t bother to say what was already known. He’d wanted Sky to himself, it wasn't going to happen and then Sky and Gabby died in the Cedar Point earthquake.
Anna's eyes go wide at this suggestion of walk him through it "Uh Phoenix...I don't think you can snip...yourself...or unsnip yourself...and I sure as hell am not messing with any of that!" She gets an odd look on her face at Molly King's name, like a flicker of recognition. Then she tuned back in about Sky and Gabby with a knowing look and a gentle kiss "I know. It's ok to miss them...miss him. He'll always be a part of you."
Phoenix winks. “I know, I was joking. Mostly.” he explains. He kisses her back. “I do miss Sky. He’s the one who talked me into buying this building a couple of years before I got with Molly and Sharon.” he snorts, softly. “Who never saw Alexandra. I must have known somehow.” he shrugs. “Because it was a messy breakup. Never had worse myself, I’ll tell you that much. Molly tried to set the building we lived in on fire.” he blows out a breath. “Then she went back to Australia.” he sighs and pulls her close again. “I’ll talk to the doctor about whatever I can do to start the reversal process. When I had it, they told me to come in for a sperm count but …” he shrugs. “Alexandra made sure I missed my appointments.”
Anna props up on one elbow looking at him in disbelief "She tried to set the building on FIRE? Jesus!!" She blows out a big exaggerated breath and then gets pulled in and smiles "Well no hurry....or maybe...I mean I'm 42 bow so not ideal...but people do it." then she taps his chest with her finger and states very practically "We probably should try NOT to reproduce during this plague...one more thing to have mental meltdowns over." She half laughs and then frowns "Why does the name Molly King seem so familiar to me? Did she get charged with arson? Was it in the news? Is she famous in Australia....I mean not that I've ever been there..." She hesitates before she goes on "This is going to sound totally insane. I've been dreaming of Australia....at least I think it is. Maybe it's New Zealand. It feels so real though. Vivid vivid dreams.....”
Phoenix nods and chuckles. “After this virus is through, I’ll ask the doctor if she’d reverse my vasectomy so I can repopulate the Earth with you.” he arches a brow. “And I am 47 … so by the time the baby is in their teens, I’ll be sixty…” he forces himself to stop doing math because .. that can get rugged. But Anna provides him a distraction. “I don’t know. Past life, maybe?” he pulls her close, getting into their cuddle. “I’m not the best with dream interpretation. You can go online now. Or talk to Rain.” he blows out a breath. “You'd have to stand on the ground and yell up at her apartment these days so … Internet.” and Rain was intense. “I can tell you what I knew about Molly’s family. Maybe you know them? Or we can go online for that too…” he offers.
Anna laughed "So we'll be old cranky parents? Awesome." She had snuggled him back sweetly but her stomach growled loudly and she padded the tarp beside her for her clothes. "I will eventually unpack all my dreams and weirdness....but right now I'm hungry. We still have leftover frittata. Do you want some of that?" She pulls her tank top on and then her shirt and then starts on her underwear and pants. "Fuel for future and better rounds." She teases.
Phoenix laughs when her growling stomach gets their attention. “Frittata sounds good.” he stands and gets quickly back into his pants. “And then round two. Remember … if at first you don’t succeed … try, try again.”
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