2020-04-17-18 - Not so surprise … - L and Addy

L hung up the then pmed stephanie for the photo curious to what she had missed.

She then looks at her empty email form ans after abit tentatively constructs an email  to addy

Hey

Sorry if i surprised you meant to write to you  soon but after i contacted Shay and owen.. i fell ill..didnt mean the frist time you hear that im back was atvthis ladies night.. which btw it was amazing. 

Anyway hmu if you  still want to talk..

L


Addison bid all of her guests good night and, laughing tidied up the ‘studio’ that they used for the bar set.  The small apartment also doubled as a little studio/storage room for Quentin Tyrell who had many, many records for his DJing gigs.  Then she locked up the apartment and headed upstairs, where she gave her father an amended version of the night's events.  Basically that Ladies Night had been a bigger success than even Addy had predicted.  She prepared for bed, staying up a little to look at the pictures she was sent from Fiona by way of Stephanie Yamada.  Finally, chuckling, she lay down and found sleep.

In the morning, she did her morning routine and ended that by checking her emails.  There she found the email from L.  She bit her lip as she considered her reply and felt a slight flair of her Irish temper that she was.  With a snort, she just did it;


Hey L,

Yea.  Long time no hear from.  I’m sorry you were ill.  That Covid-19 is scary, especially considering my Dad’s health.  He’s not exactly at Death’s Door but he could watch his weight, blood pressure .. shit like that.  

So Shay and Owen know you’re back.  Well … that’s good I guess.

Thanks for the compliment.  I am really happy with how it turned out.  Dad and Jack Douglas, who is one of the people that lives here now that Cedar Point is gone, plan to basically be open like that a few nights a week with events like Ladies Night or Boys Night or whatever they come up with.
So … what have YOU been up to since .. well the last 3 years I guess.

Addy


She doesn’t even read it over before she sends it.



L  wakes up and goes to  unlock the door to her father's stufy.  She saw him and they had a stalemate in the hallway.  Then Hikar opens his mouth  then shuts it.

L looks at him ans then clears her throat.."im sorry i overreacted  but  im not that little girl anymore that left here. 3 years ago

Hikari  nods. "I know you're not.  But to me.. i lost 3 years  of your lifr andnit still feels like you're  15

L purses her lips and nods not nothing what to say. She just adds " i need so sunshine..im going  to  practice  outside

The man just nods to give her space

L takes her cello, sheet music and stand dragging  it abit away from the buidlmg. She sets up her stand and then instead of playing  the music  on the sheets  . She starts to play an acoustic version  of Take on me that she had seen on YouTube..

Owens was stiil on her mind.. he had always  been on her mind.. all these years

She stops play to check her phone  for messages from him.  Though  she didn't  have any  from him, she did have some from Sabine , her grandmother  and from Addy..

She was curious  about her family  in France ..but she was even more curious about Addy


She read then exhales  as she attempts  to put into words  what has happened  to her all these year

Well where do i start.. after leaving  to collect  my mind about  owen.. which only made me want him more...i tried  calling  and sending him message about 2 weeks later.. but i didn't  get anything  in return...i figure.. i finally  drove  him away  so i wallowed abit though  i did go to a steampunk convention  and met thsi band called the Chronos Tin Pirates and well they were looking  for a bass and i fit the bill

The leader singer was dashing  and was still getting  over owen but Jaque  has a way of charming  people ans well i thought  that  ibwas in love but i think i i was just spellbound  by his charisma.. it didnt work out but one night while on tour at an after after party .  I partied too hard on grey goose ans ecstasy and well in the morning  i was naked and in jaquee  arm.. the next week i found  out i was pregnant.. we didn't  get back together  because  we knew that was a lost cause..but about a year and one month ago Angelique  came into this world.. and about 5 months ago..she departed ...

So yeah... thats what been going on in my life..


The sad thing even though  i know Owens has moved on and he deserves better.. i still miss him and love him.. 

But I guess thats a dead horse.. ill let alone.. and im trying  to move on.. ive dated abit after Jaque  but have found another  likem. Well that i like

Anyways i hope you jack and all yours  stay well and hope you have found happiness. 

Thanks for responding 

Your  friend 
L

L exhales and sniffs and sends it

She meant he hadnt found anyone  like owen..does this still mean she still loves him. She know she neds to get over him
but the question was does she want to

She continues  playing  take me on.. as self punishment  then goes back to working  on her music



Addy spent most of the morning in her garden, making sure she had planted everything that she could now that she was certain there would be no more frost.  Then she had her lunch and settled down at her computer to check her mail again.  A reply from L.  She sat down and read it. By the time she was done, her eyes had narrowed, so she tried to read it again.  Then she blew out a breath … and just replied.



Hey L.

Wait … you left for the summer break to go to France.  Or at least I thought you had.  But also to collect your mind about Owen?  Was Owen a problem?  How?  Just because you two were getting close or something?

Holy shit.  You had a kid.  Wow.  I’m sorry to hear it died.  I think I’ll drop it here because you know my mouth.  I have the same problem typing.

Owen has grown a lot.  We all did because we had to.  Maybe it's best not to try and rip open any of his old wounds about you.  Just be happy with what you had and keep the good memories of that.  

Owen is like my family.  They all are.  I protect my family.

I actually did find happiness.  Great guy.  Older.  Patient with me.

Well, welcome back.  Do you have plans to stay or are you just visiting your Uncle before college?

Addy



L is the middle of playing  what she wrote on her sheets scratching out and rewriting  hearing her phone tell her she had a reply


She looks over and see yhe writer.. she bites her lips and read her brow firrow and a frown creeping as she reads..she was happy that addy had found  happiness.. but its not like she intended  to leave Owens  .. they were taking  a break..and they were forced  to move on..

She calm replies

Im glad you  found happiness.. and it all worked  for you..

 I did go both on vacation  and Owen and i were taking  a break ..it was getting  overwhelming  for me because i was getting  to close  to him and when that happens  i freak out because  of the trauma  of my parents  abandoning me.. i was just sorting my head..but fate made that choice   for me when it cut me off from me. Thoug i wish it didnt...i did want to stay with him.. though i was a confused 15 year old and made a horrible mistake. its something i regretted hesitating and loosing  my chance with him.. im not going  open up a healed wound JUST to make myself  feel good. But just leave it to fate...

Ill just not be hesitant next time if i get another chance at love

As for staying here  i don't know.. i have  my band but though we are family..we were falling  apart  even  before  covid.. we all have a different  direction  we want  to take the music.. the band was dying slowly.and i been writing  some new pieces.. so its all up in the air.. we shall see..for now.. ill stay here maybe get myself a place.. for as much as i love my father..him and others only see someone that left. But who knows.. ehat fate will bring me.. im ready for it
.

She sighs as she sends  it off. Before she changes her mind. knowing this is how addy would  react  and now regreted being so open to her but knew it what needed  to be said.





Addy was actually pacing back and forth in her living room when she heard her email notification.  Seeing the reply to email, her mouse cursor hovers over it for a long time before Addy clicks on it and reads.  A growl comes from her and she stands again, pacing again for several minutes.  Part of her knows that she should just step back and not reply at all, but the part of her that just charges in headlong takes over.  Finally she sits on the couch and begins to type, wiping away angry tears and trying not to let any of that show in her reply.



L,

When I was a little girl, my mother left my father for another man.  Apparently there were a bunch of other men and my mother just picked one to abandon her family for.  She’s tried to reach out to me like nothing happened and she’s probably the first woman I ever called a bitch or cursed out.  Without going into any more details you don’t need to know, I understand having abandonment issues.  I understand making mistakes.

I remember most how hard it was to get close to you when you were here.  We all tried.  Always had to reach out and invite you to sit with us.  I remember watching Owen struggle to talk to you and your not making it easy on him, even though he liked you so much it was coming out of his fucking eyes, nose and ears.  I apologized to you because I knew you were struggling and my being a bitch probably wasn’t real therapeutic for you.

Fate?  Another chance at love?  I hope you mean with someone else!  Not with Owen.

I don’t even want to know at this point what Prof. Horatio is.  I thought he was your uncle but apparently we didn’t know the half of anything about you.

Know what?  I need to stop here.  I’m frustrated and pissed and that’s never a good thing.

Cya around,
Addy



L just reads the response and nods as she agrees with Addy but was more grown then her former self . Younger naive scared 15 year old L  would  have just fired back playing  the victim..but now older former mother more worldly woman Elena just nods .

She was a victim. Not having  many people to rely on scarred her and made her weak.. but this new creature at the stand was now a grown  woman victoress of a Phoenix.. she experienced  the loss  of a love and a child and learnt from her mistakes.

She raises her head  high and
smiles.  "I have overcome.."  she say not need to reply  back to Addy.. addy was just protecting  her family.

Something Elena would have done in a heart beat if someone  had hurt her Angelique..she got it  and loved Addy abit more for her defense  of the Reinhardt